Past and present

Whether you live in the present there are some things in your past that you have to see in order to forget and forgive. Whether it hurts you it’s something that will help you.

because you cant cross the road without looking at both ways or sides.

Lol

Lol

rosexvm:

Effin’ jerk! I knew i shouldn’t have picked up your call no matter how lonely i felt…cause it just led to another argument. Just because my way of forgetting about us is to go out drinking does not mean i’m whoring around…trying to find a new boyfriend. I’m not like that..and i’m so upset you…

Maybe it is his way of chasing you. He probably is sad because it seems you are moving on without him. Everyone has a different way of showing how they feel. Maybe he is scared of losing you?

rosexvm:

in my case, i down myself on my body the most. i know my body isn’t perfect and i understand that, however, what makes me feel insecure about it is that no matter how hard i’m trying to gain weight, i’m actually losing a dramatic amount of weight. sure, most girls would kill to go through the…

I know what you mean but it’s a love hate relationship with your body. I use to want to gain weight so much because my chest area; however be careful what you ask for and be thankful for what you do have. When I started to gain weight I gained it in the areas that I loved the most per-weight gain, and now I’m starting to regret wanting to have what I didn’t because it all comes with a price. Stretch marks are painful, and trying to gain your old body back starts to become a war. I wish then that I could be happy with what I was given, and you should just be happy with what you have now because later it might be too late.

Important people

The moment in your life when someone important comes back into your life.
It’s been hard avoiding and ignoring her for a year and a half, but it all changed. I finally found time and courage to talk to her, to make amends to all the problems we’ve had, to finally clarify and hear each others side. Yes I know it’s not going to be the same relationship, but this was the closure we both needed to move on. I knew I couldn’t let her go and just move on, and I just knew I wanted her to know I still cared for her like I did because she was and still is someone important. I’m thankful for the time we got, the memories, and the friendship but my dear I still have to let you go.
I still have to let the you I use to know go, because I can’t build new bridges to who you are now if I keep thinking of who you use to be. I loved you with all my heart, and I will miss you with all of it my dear friend :)

Dinner

Dinner

Beautiful

I know I’m not as beautiful as some people, but just because you are or you aren’t you don’t have to change yourself for a guy’s attention. Also just because you are prettier than most girls, you shouldn’t make yourself the center of attention or make yourself appear as every man’s perfect girl. I’m not one to complain, but when I see this it makes me a bit disgusted. However it’s just me ranting about girls who try too hard.

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rosexvm:

Why am I not good enough for any jobss? Seriously, i may not have a list of experience but I have potential to be a great worker, so why isn’t that enough? I don’t even know where I go wrong when I fill out my applications or engage in my interviews but I’m never chosen to be hired. I’m feeling discouraged….don’t even want to bother trying if this is the only answer I’m going to receive. But ofcourse i know better, I must keep trying rather than give up. This just sucks :’(

I think you need to show more personality and energy. Employers look for a people person someone not shy, and that’s what you have to sell in your interview you have to sell them into wanting to hire you. Make yourself standout.

Relationships

I look at all my past relationships and I think to myself damn! I mean I feel like I ruined a perfectly good man, and it’s true. When I look at them now I see a whole new person, and I realized I made them this way. It’s completely selfish of me to do so because they opened so much of themselves and their heart for me, and I’m thinking that I’m too good for these guys! However I was wrong because they were too good for me, and it upsets me now that I changed someone do pure and so real. Again, I’m happy that they have found someone to share themselves with truly, and I’m more than excited that they did. For me I’m glad I found someone who I want to change for, and that is what makes me happy. Now looking at it I’m glad things happen for a reason you never know who you’ll meet or fall in love with.

Let go but keep fighting :)

Sad to say my team broke up. I can’t say I didn’t see this coming because I saw it. It does hurt to see something you helped create fall apart so horribly, but at the same time feel relieved that it did.

I took many valuable lesson from losing, and needless to say it felt great to lose. I learned that no matter how desperate you are to win never forget how it feels to lose, because sometimes you win or lose. I learned how important it was to value and stick up for your team mates, because not doing so destroys the team. I learned to accept defeat but still manage to give my all, because this helps inspire those who have given up. I also learned that girls aren’t so trustworthy when keeping promises, but that’s life! Most importantly I learned to never give up on myself and my team mates, because if I had given up I would have already lost. Winning doesn’t always mean you get the trophy, because as long as you dedicated yourself, played passionately, gave all you can, accept the defeat then you already won. The most important part is the journey, and my friends it was worth it. To be honest, I would do it all over again from getting beat up, beat down, bruised all over, and eating the ground. Might I say it, but it felt good to be apart of something.

Love and always will! Forever team SIKE! #19